Abigail is still sleeping - we are almost 10 1/2 hrs into this sleep stretch! - and i really should be getting ready since she's sleeping and i have to be at the dr at 11, but i can't bring myself to get ready. i'm tired. i haven't been sleeping well the past few nights. this weekend was horribly stressful over stupid stuff. (well, half stupid, half not stupid!) actually, forget this weekend: LIFE has been horribly stressful!! i know, life isn't easy. but it would be nice to get a few breaks in between the insane hard-ness of it all, sometimes. i feel myself getting angry with God. that's not good. i talked to my aunt on the phone last night for over an hour. she called to talk about something completely different but we ended up talking about all the crap that robert and i are dealing with right now. it helped b/c she and i are so much alike it's scary yet she can still see things clearly b/c she's not in the middle of the situation. robert was great letting me talk to her - even though abby was going crazy. i just feel like a break would be nice. for just a minute. but then i feel guilty b/c half of america is going through the same thing we are! why should we be any different? i just feel like we've tried so hard for so long to just be not only no better off, but worse off!!! that just doesn't make sense to me.

anyway. here endeth the senseless rambling. my beautiful daughter is starting to stir...