so we had a bit of an eventful day yesterday. we had a pregnancy scare...turns out i'm not. but going through all that and going through the severe disappointment/devestation really solidified in me just how much i do want a baby. and yes, i know, it will happen one day. (blah blah blah) but the desire to be a mother and to have my own child just gets deeper and deeper as the months go by. we'll see when it actually happens......

i guess that's what led me to this new skin. well, that and my new obsession of playing around with whole blog thing. but more than the awesome picture of the baby (which one day i will change to by my baby) was the words "simple innocence." it struck me. literally jumped off the screen and hit me in the face. simple innocence. isn't that how we should live? our lives are so full of chaos and stress, whether made for us or of our own making. but however it's generated, it's there. and until we can get back to child-like innocence, our lives seem too much to handle sometimes. i want so badly to be in a place where i can live in simple innocence. where i can be free to enjoy life without having to worry about the big (or little) things.

anyway - more on this later. i have work to do.