alright. seriously, my child is the most impatient baby EVER! (okay, maybe that's an exaggeration, but here we go again....)

i was admitted monday after my regular check up for being 4 cm dilated and 50-60% effaced, -2 station and membranes present. and this time they told me i would have to stay until i delivered.....

I contracted every 2 mins for 3 hrs monday with PAINFUL contrax. they expected to see abby tuesday morning. but they were able to stop labor and today has been much better. still contrating but not as bad. the dr won't allow anyone to check me b/c my membranes are RIGHT THERE and she could easily break it with her fingernail if she wanted...so no more cervix checks til I'm in active labor. lovely.they gave me some narcotic monday night for pain and it completely knocked me out. I won't have that again...had I progressed, there would have been no way that I could have pushed.

they completey blind-sided me this morning and let me come home!!!! (i think it's because i freaked out on the nurse last night and completely went ballistic...on accident!) here's the story:i have been having to stay on my back almost completely b/c abby is still too small for the monitors to really keep track of her and the best way is on my back. the problem is that laying on my back constantly HURTS! so at night when i was sleeping, i didn't realize i was turning to my side...until the nurses came in to adjust the monitors. well, last night after about the 25th time (literally) in about 45 minutes i had had it! plus, my IV kept going off every time i got up to go to the bathroom -- which was about every 15 minutes. so i'd have to call to have them silence the stupid thing. we couldn't do it. so finally i had just had enough and i started balling my eyes out and yelling at the nurse (which i later apologized for!) and just couldn't calm down! it was just bad...so this morning when my dr made her rounds she said, "i heard you had a rough night last night!" i felt really bad but she said that IF i wanted to go home, i could. there wasn't anything else they could do to stop the contrax and i could just as easily take both meds (procardia and terbutaline) at home as in the hospital. well, it took me 4 hours to decide that i did, in fact, want to come home. at first i didn't because i felt like i had a better chance at getting the epidural/phenergan quicker if i stayed since i was already hooked up to the IV. but she said that that was going to come out if i decided to stay. and abby is in no danger whatsoever....she's constantly moving and had the hiccups almost the whole time! her heartbeat is good so i feel comfortable with that. so after a 4 hour deliberation with robert,, my mom, my dr, my nurse and erin, i decided to come on home. so here i am!

i got the COOLEST ultrasound on monday when they admitted me....the tech was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sweet and printed me out the pictures i've been dying for my entire pregnancy. i've wanted her face so badly but could never get it. now i have 2!!! and she looks EXACTLY like Robert! it's scary, really! she has his chin, his nose and his forehead! it really isn't fair: we go through all this crap with them then they come out looking like their father! what's up with that!??!

alright, well, i think that's it! i'm hoping that the next time i go to the hospital i'll come home with a baby OUTSIDE of me! i'm nervous about breaking my water...i'm afraid that any sudden movement or anything will break it. apparently it's just kinda hanging RIGHT there.....i have to go to the dr 2 times a week from now on (fun!). my next appt is friday. i have no idea if i'm more dilated from the active labor monday night - they refused to check me until friday. so right now i'm 4 cm, 50-60% effaced, -2 station with membranes present. but i'm fairly certain that the labor and contractions i was having monday did some more dilation....i won't tell you why - just trust me on that one!!!

and on top of all this, NaBloPoMo is completely shot!!!!